Hi There!
If you are reading this, then you have stumbled across (or
been lead kicking and screaming) my blog. I have struggled with weight loss for
years and years and years and, well you get the picture. I have tried every “diet”
and miracle pill out there. I suffered through Slimgenics and Weight Watchers,
Plexus and just about every fad diet out there, hating myself a little bit more every time someone else around me lost
and/or I gained.
When I started this journey I didn’t know that I have PCOS,
or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. PCOS is a metabolic condition which has among many
other nasty symptoms (that I won’t bore you with right now) a difficulty or
flat out inability to lose weight. Now that I know, it just makes me that much
more frustrated. I also suffer from chronic fatigue, asthma, Fibromyalgia, and all over body pain.
I would lose and gain, lose and gain and gain the same
pounds over and over again. And I hated myself for it. I fell down a deep dark
rabbit hole of self-loathing and depression that I am only just now beginning
to crawl out of. Somewhere along the way, my sister suggested Plexus.
Desperate, I tried it. I was faithful, but I guess it wasn’t the right time, because
nothing was happening. I grew frustrated, and quit; like I quite every other
diet or weight loss program I tried.
At some point, I devolved a condition called Spinal
Stenosis, and also managed to herniate a disk. For a year I was
in constant pain that got worse any time I stood up for more than 3-5 minutes,
or tried to walk more than about 2 blocks. So, how does one lose weight when you
can’t even exercise? I resolved to try Plexus again. This time, I had a better understanding of
what Plexus is, and how the supplements work.
You see, Plexus isn’t a diet. It’s not even specifically
marketed for weight loss. It’s a Healthy Living plan that often has the added
benefit of weight loss. I personally hadn’t experienced the weight loss
benefit, but I have seen it happen for many, many people, including my sister.
So I jumped right back on the Plexus band wagon, I even let her talk me into
becoming an Ambassador so that I could sell the stuff and make enough money to
pay for my product. Yeah right! Nothing. No weight loss, no curbed cravings, no
improved energy. And no sales. I told myself that I was a failure before I even
gave myself a chance.
I stumbled along for a year or so, trying to get more exercise, doing my best to eat right and watching the number on the scale grow. Frustration mounting, depression deepening. I closed myself off from writing and avoided spending time in public. I avoided mirrors and shopping as much as possible. In February of 2018, I decided to start fresh. I went on vacation, fully intending to start a new exercise and food plan upon my return.
One day into my trip, I tripped. Literally. I tripped over a tent rope and ended up tearing all of the ligaments and the meniscus in my right knee. I have spent the last 8 months fighting with surgeons to get my knee repaired, having surgery, and recovering from that. Now I am on the mend, and ready to start this journey once again.
So, if you have read this far, thanks for sticking with me. Hopefully, this blog will help me keep accountable. Sit back, buckle in, and enjoy the ride.